Your Different, It hurts. The hole in my chest, the stab in my heart the wound still exists and it's pounding more than ever only this time it's x30 worse, amazingly u n b e a r a b l e..

My First Love..

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand
It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

And I still cry for you
And I would die for you
I can't believe all the words I heard you say
And I still l o n g f o r y o u
And I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away .

LOOOOOOOOOOL this is how stupid our convos are

okay so me & erika both posted this up on our blogs cus it was too fkin hilarious LOL it really cheered me up.


Ιпfамоuѕ♪. bnguyen <3 ; says:
*i miss stealing coupons from sus
e r i k a NGUYEN says:
*LMAO I DID THAT TODAY
*oh fuck
*you just reminded me
*i put it in my shoe at work
*i forgot
*dammit, i think
*when ichanged my shoe
*it fell out
*='(
*='(
*FUCK KAY OMG LMAO
Ιпfамоuѕ♪. bnguyen <3 ; says:
*LMFAO
*HAHAHA
*FAIL
e r i k a NGUYEN says:
*OMGGG DAMMITTT LOLL
*it was a FREE REGULAR POPCORN
*LOL
*DAMMIT!
Ιпfамоuѕ♪. bnguyen <3 ; says:
* LMFAO
*UR
*SUCH A FAG
e r i k a NGUYEN says:
*i luv popcorn..
*LMAO
*im trying to help cong on his diet, so on break i didnt eat popcorn cuz he gets tempted
*i sacrificed
*butterpopcorn
*to help
*him
*its true love..
*LOOOLLOLOL
Ιпfамоuѕ♪. bnguyen <3 ; says:
*LMFAOOOOOOOOOO
*WOW
*REALSHIT
*THATS LOVE
*i never seen u give up food before dats fkin sacarfice right deree

check her out at http://erikaquach.blogspot.com =) don't creep though ; )

Two is Better Than One(8); Is it reallllllyy

Maybe its true, that I cant live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
Theres so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And Im thinking two, is better than one.

It's okay I'm finally done. No I'm not giving you up, I'm just giving up on the belief of having 'the one' your 'soulmate' "LOVE" is officially just a myth to me. This isn't hatred, it isn't bitterness either, it's loneliness. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired being taken advantage of, hurting MYSELF for no good reason. Why? because I'm weak. & no, it's nothing she did or someonelse made me realize, It just finally hit me. Im young, I need to live my life I need to get myself on track focus on me. That's the only way I've always looked at it anyways right? looking out just for yourself, I truly believe if I give myself a chance to be happy, then maybe someday, it'll be the only way I'll ever make someonelse happy. & I'm not going to look at it from a point of me changeing necessarly, I'm just adapting and adjusting to survive REALITY so whatever it takes I'll make sure that someday I'll smile and it wont be fake and truly be happy, not because everythings 'perfect at the moment' but because I'll be happy with what I've accomplished and succeeded in life. Love? It can wait, can it not?. Besides you should never search for it nor wait for it. See an oppertunity grab it, however don't depend on it. People change, everyone leaves. " cherish the moments " -ac. " who want's to hold someone down in highschool anyways " - kh. These are all valuable perspectives I will consider for the present and the future, no more spending my time and money on people who don't even care. Then start contributeing to my own community. Maybe someday I'll get to know my family, and open up to my friends and love someone with everything I have. " When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to recieve something better." So far, all you've done is take, take, oh and take. What kind of play have you put on my life "God"?. " I'm not going to care about the people who don't care about me. & forget the people who've forgotten about me." Simple as that. Please don't ask me questions because I'm so done with talking and complaining about life, theres worse things happening in the world & all our teenage problems, eventually won't even matter once we get older. Were all depended on our own or atleast should be, we are responsible for what we become, for the people who get left behind? You Don't have time to keep slowing down anymore times moving ahead, and I need to focus on takeing a step forward, not 2 steps back.

"i wont hope so i dont get disappointed . i wont care so i wont have to worry . i wont love so i'll never get hurt. " - MT.

Lights Off (8)

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired
It's you that I'm missing
It's like my brain is wired up and there's a glitch in my system
You're like a drug and now my blood won't stop itching
I'm in critical condition someone let me out of this prison
it's like my mind is playing tricks on me
lately I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I'm on a merry-go-round going around, driving me crazy..(8)

Tôi không biet neu nhu tôi thêm kho so mà không có chi hay có chi.

MidKnight (8)

okay soo I went to first period today had a supply whoopiee did my homework half the fucking school wasn't here today because of their holy holiday. Second period got some work done but then loafted, lunch was fine the usual I didn't wanna go to class so I just skipped the rest of the afternoon, fuck I need to STOP skipping seriously, it's becomeing a huge hectic habit. *sigh anyways went home worked out then showered got ready decided to go pick up my cousin at weston c.i surprisingly, my other cousin made me wait like 30 mins cause my aunt was being a whore takeing FOR FUCKING EVER while I stood in the cold waiting for these bitchasses anyways then met up with her friend Jennifer we bussed to eglinton did some shopping : ) bday + xmas shopping & I won't expose them here because you'll see them IF YOU GET ONE :D anyways went to dinner at the keg. Finding gifts was the hard part I had no idea what to get but thank god I got it done! parted ways went on the bus this old asian woman who looked below averaged income sat infront of me, I felt this sudden heart drop, here I am with a bunch of expensive gifts that's barely nearly important while I could spend some change towards charity or the in need. I felt pretty dissapointed and then she spoke to me asking which station were going to next, I explained theres only 2 stops left before the train goes backwards, I even showed the map but she wouldn't listen she insisted were going westbound however we were on northbound but it was my stop & I was sure she'd figure it out eventually so I stopped bothering, waiting for the dam 165 I swear to buddha I seen like 3 busses go down the tunnel and never came the fuck back up -___- so finally one came I hopped on and now I'm home. I can't wait to wrap my presents >: ) I think thats so fun LOL loser? maybe. Do I care? not really. anyways off to do something productive of myself, goodbye.