Shut it down (8)

I'm tired of everyone & everything. I understand why now, everyones trying to do them. & i'm not mad at anyone or anything because they have there reasons, if anything i envy the fact that they realize it before me. Realized that you can't depend or rely on anyone in this life. It's a dog eat dog world, anyone will drop you if necessay, yeah it sucks and it hurts but thats what people do. They think about themselves first, and its absoloutley the smartest thing anyone can admit. So from here on, I don't care about anyonelses drama cause buddy I got my own. I dont care about anyonelses happiness, cause I finally need to work on myself. I don't care if here and there people make mistakes and fuck you over because nobody's perfect. & all i know is, I'm imperfect and I'm gonna love myself before I love anyonelse. I love my friends, or whats left of them I appreciate everything but I guess it's time to go our seperate ways. Memories fade but the feeling lasts a lifetime.

Should I..?

I've made up my mind,
No need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I aint right,
No need to look no further,
This ain't lust, i know
This is love but,

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i'm in love with you,

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Betrayl.

Don't know what's right or wrong? what you did was wrong. & If I decide to forgive you guys or not will be up to me, Friends use to come with a meaning but I was right the whole time at the back of my head, Trust noone but yourself but even then sometimes I fear what I might do. People make mistakes but it doesnt mean that they should be given an automatic chance, I use to believe anyone can deserve another chance DEPENDING if the giver believes they do. However right now, I don't even think I can look at anyone, talk to anyone or trust anyone. It might not have been a big deal to you guys or in anyonelses eyes, but it definatley hurt me badly. Never have I thought I'd go through this, Loyalty is everything and lately I've been thinking I've been giving it out way to easily. to Forgive & Forget is a lot to ask of me, now you have to live up to your consequences, If you think about it, you'll only lose a friend I've lost a bestfriend.

It's about me.

I wanna make myself happy for once, no matter how selfish I have to be.

iyiyi

I don't know what to do, I don't know who to be, I don't know who I am anymore.

When did I get so LOST.

Never have high hopes, or any expectations for anybody. you'll just end up dissapointed and that is worse then not knowing at all.

Last chapter.

Here end the lesson, rip the pages and burn the Book.