man oh man.

*sigh there's so much I wanna say. But theres so much that I'm restricted too. You know how you miss things when it's gone, and no I don't mean partners wise. Just the old times, memories, expierences just all the good times passing by . I miss a lot of them, and as much as I try to create new and more exciteing ones, it just never seems to work out. Things are different now, slowly changeing, it's hard. it hurts. All you can do is go with it. Certain things have their advantages and there disadvantages, and your always ALWAYS gonna want the things you CAN'T have. The day you can honestly say that;

''you can take a single glance at someone who you've terribly loved and hurt and not feel a THING, that'll be the day you know you've finally moved on.'' - yours truly.

grrrrrrawr

don't do this again -_- get your act straight mann, focus focus focus! school + money = priorities.
babe & da homes = necessities. That's all that matters.

99th day.

It was on the 99th day that I realized. & for a moment I thought I could have been ready, but no. It was too soon. Despite all the arguments and stupid fights we get into, it's always made up because nothing that small or stupid can interefere, however It does build up, constantly. It's tireing and how can you really handle that, some may wonder. I adore the way she fits into my arms, and how we can fall asleep anywhere as long as we're together. Her Smile, soft skin the way she grips onto me. How I run my fingers through her hair, I love the feeling that SHE feels safe with me. It's like being called Superman. But sometimes, just SOMETIMES it gets really hard, the reason why people are stubborn, insecure and stuck is because of past experiences, always, always. If you've had your trust bond broken before, your wall only expands higher and wider beyong the horizons, and it makes it difficult for anew to b r e a k it d o w n, its unfair but that's how it is. The saying how it goes 'Sometimes - we build a wall, not to keep people out but to see who cares enough to knock them down' I really really hope it's you. I truly do.

Main Concerns

TOP NECESSITIES.

1. Save up for Prom/NY shopping.
2. Get glasses
3. New Phone

happy 3 months..?

It's like karma just struck me right in the chest, in a moments notice, everything can be taken away from you. Just like that, everything changes and it'll never be the same. It's too hard, no matter how selfish you want to be you can't. You gotta look beyond yourself and say this is how it has to be, for your sake, mines and theirs. No matter how heart wrenching, you have to give her up, and let her go.

Up

Baby, we can go nowhere but up, from here my dear.

nom nom nom ;

yay so baby's coming home from cali today FINALLY! shit son. Board your ass on the plane, better get home safely. Anyways this week has been HEEECCCCTIIICCCCCC like NOOO lie omfbuddha. lack of sleep, exhaustion, slacking, piles of assignments but whatever its stress im use to it i'll deal with it. Um work is alrighhttt, gotta list of the PRIORITY things that must be bought and over with!has been loafting for toooooo long grrr. There was a moment when I was kinda mia from ppl and ppl were mia from me, how lonesome, sucks but w.e everyones got there ting but aint gonna change anything they're still my girls . But yea lots of things to save up for thats gonna burn a hole in my pocket BUT it'll be worth it, im excited >: D BUAHAHAHA. Anyways Imma go watch some criminal minds, hop in bed wait for her to call me and