happy 3 months..?

It's like karma just struck me right in the chest, in a moments notice, everything can be taken away from you. Just like that, everything changes and it'll never be the same. It's too hard, no matter how selfish you want to be you can't. You gotta look beyond yourself and say this is how it has to be, for your sake, mines and theirs. No matter how heart wrenching, you have to give her up, and let her go.

Up

Baby, we can go nowhere but up, from here my dear.

nom nom nom ;

yay so baby's coming home from cali today FINALLY! shit son. Board your ass on the plane, better get home safely. Anyways this week has been HEEECCCCTIIICCCCCC like NOOO lie omfbuddha. lack of sleep, exhaustion, slacking, piles of assignments but whatever its stress im use to it i'll deal with it. Um work is alrighhttt, gotta list of the PRIORITY things that must be bought and over with!has been loafting for toooooo long grrr. There was a moment when I was kinda mia from ppl and ppl were mia from me, how lonesome, sucks but w.e everyones got there ting but aint gonna change anything they're still my girls . But yea lots of things to save up for thats gonna burn a hole in my pocket BUT it'll be worth it, im excited >: D BUAHAHAHA. Anyways Imma go watch some criminal minds, hop in bed wait for her to call me and

Begining

Working Towards ANEW.

Day1

SOO baby's off to Cali : ( boohoo, bitch gets to have fun while I stay here and do my daily routines, all well. Hope she has fun, but not too much ; ). Time to get my social life back on track LOL , works gonna kill me mannnn zero sleep + 9 hours shift, fuck.my.fucking.life realtalks. AHHHH anyways, im hungry im thinking about making breakfest or somthing, pray for my soul today guys. Anyways, time to go fb creep : ) MORNING!

When is it Enough?

I'm sick and tired of the Apologies. No more.

doodoodododoo

Been m.i.a for awhilee, slaacking. Guess I haven't had much to say lately. Life isn't complicated, we just make situations into hardships that effect our overal goal. Look at the bigger picture, what do you want in life. How are you going to get there. What makes you happy. Who matters, who doesnt. Full of questions, blank answers. My life is undecided, stressful but simple. Education is key, although I don't know which door to open. Happiness comes from love, it's a long way to get there, maybe this whole time I never really knew what love actually is, were still all very young kids in a big world thinking we know it all. Savouring the moments of our youths. It's terrifying, growing up. Just the other day I was in a corner playing with puzzles and cubed blocks.. Time flies by. I wanna be the best for you, no matter how much heartache and pressure you put on my shoulders. Truth is, all I wanna do is succeed to prove to myself and you that I'm not a burden that I can make it in life now matter how much I DISPISE YOU, you are my parents and I know they're suffering and have suffered to survive for my brother and I. Though that doesn't give you a pass on skipping out throughout my whole life transformation of growing. That, I did on my own. My life is boring, Routines are boring I'm boring. I need Excitment, I need the rush I crave to feel ALIVE. I'm just a tiny hermit crab trying to find my way in the vast ocean, just sitting on a patch of pure grained soft sand, clawing my way through on the expansion of the unknown obsticles the beach may cover.

So,Am I Happy? ..