What is this?!, fucking a Walk down memory lane or somthing?! get OUT of my HEADD ugh.

Maybe I never will.

Once upon a time, we swore not to say goodbye
Something got a hold of us and we changed
Then you sat alone in pride
and I sat at home and cried
How'd our fairytale just end up this way

no need to call my phone cause I changed my number today
a matter fact, I think i'm moving away (away)
sorry, the frustrations got me feeling that way
and i just keep having one last thing to say
and i just wanna hold you,
touch you,
feel you,
be near you,
i miss you baby baby baby..

i'm tired of tryin to fake through, but there's nothing I can do..
girl I can't wait to hate you..
I can't wait to hate you make you,
pain like i do.. still can't shake you off..
I can't wait to break through these, emotional changes..
seems like such a lost 'cause
I can't wait to face you,
b r e a k y o u,
down so low there's no place left to go..
I can't wait to hate you.. baby..
I can't wait to hate you..

I'm not saying I regret my decision, I won't lie Its like a load of stress just washed away. There are some benefits, I don't have to constantly worry or contemplate whens the next time I get to see and talk to you or when our next fight would be. I was willing to handle all that over and over again. The only thing is, I gave up and sometimes that takes a lot more strength then to hold on I'm not saying I'm gonna run back to you, because I promised myself I wont let it be that way anymore, because apologizing would mean me admiting I was wrong, now I dont have a problem with that, however it'd be false accusation. If you really wanted me back in your life you would have stood up that day, or now. It's just a shame how everything ended the way it did, It made me really dissapointed and im not gon lie, girl you made me happy in a lot of other ways I miss talking to you, in a way you were like my bestfriend, my feelings just got in the way... I know how you are, and this is the end so I wont hope that maybe "someday" we can become friends again, I wonder everyday how your doing..I still tear over you at times, when I start to thinking,& unbelievable as it is I don't regret anything. sigh, babygirl<3.

"Pain is inevitible, Suffering is choice."

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew.When you can walkright past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours. And how now, you can barely even look at them."

If I had One Wish..

bout your happiness, It's time I fucking get mines bitches. your all annoying. Fuck that shit, I'm not gonna live just to please others and make other people feel better about themselves anymore, espeacially when they can't pick themselves up. No matter how hard or alone and independant I have to be in order to succeed, I'll always get back up somehow on my own. I'll be happy again, oneday.

Fuck this shit, ain't got time for bitches whinning, focus on myself all I need is to work on my health, education & mind on $$$.

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't even look at you, because I know if I did I would n e v e r be able to look away. Incredible, she still has the power to make my knees weak and heart beat.